/biz/ - Business & Finance

>german
>be 35 now
>worked all my life
>dodged all women, fun, expenses in life in general to save as much money as possible
>got sick last year
>got fired for being sick
>ok.jpg atleast I can now use my saved money and travel around the world and enjoy life in general
>corona hits
>cant do anything since all travel destinations are unavailable
>have to stay at my parents house because I cant get my own apartment since landlords require "stable income"
>housing prices has risen up too get my own
>cant get government support since I have too much saved money
>negative interest eats up my saved up money

it was all for nothing. just kill me now

crypto is dead

Does anyone here trade stocks to fuel their hikikomori lifestyle?

>europoors will soon be awake and dumping

>graduated in 2015 with engineering degree
>failed over 30 graduate job and internship interview processes since 2013
>in the UK graduate interviews are solely tests of normieness and extroversion
>always surrounded by posh normie clone candidates being interviewed by their slightly older clones
>worked only part time wagecuck roles since 2015 while living at home

How do I fix this? How do I not lose hope?

Life is unfair. Some posh person who goes to a private school is taught to act in an ubernormie way and skates through a zero work arts degree at university. This is the type of person interviewing me when I go to graduate job interviews in London.

After failing yet another job interview process that had me judged solely on my extroversion and normieness while surrounded by posh normie clones and interviewed by their slightly older clones, I am tempted once again by self help. Are the below books good?

A guide to rational living
What every body is saying
How to win friends and influence people
Psycho cybernetics

I am a huge cynic and see all philosophies as unfalsifiable and all pieces of wisdom and self help as bullshit at their core. Should I just ignore all pieces of advice, all of which I would probably forget, and just lie more, speak louder, speak clearer, speak more?

>waiting for my interview to start
>will be surrounded by candidates who are posh normie clones and interviewed by their slightly older clones
>tfw will be given extremely easy tasks and questions so that the interviewers can pick and choose at their discretion
>tfw becoming so damn demoralised at my lack of interview success - the only things that matter are looks and normie level

>in my retailcuck wagie job
>scanning products at the till
>scanned my old university lecturer's products

And the loser of the week award goes to....

>all those people my age (25) or younger who are successful

How do you guys cope with knowing that people make your salary everyday not by some grand virtue, but dimply through fraud.

I'm honestly having a crisis. I can't tell if I should join them or give up. It's so easy, and so few get caught I see no reason not to commit fraud.

Can anyone help convince me to stay on the right path? Because I think I'm starting to veer off.

How do I stop feeling guilty about not working non stop? Apart from things all humans do plus going to the gym, I feel guilty about any of my habits. And I have no goals.

I want to read books but I feel guilty about reading a set number of pages a day. I am worried about being called a pleb for not reading ten trillion boring Western canon novels. I feel like an ADD pleb for rarely reading more than 60 pages at a time. I hate that I'm more likely to put a book down at the end of a chapter.

Similarly for working. I know I could always be working to become better off. I know that people who talk about taking breaks are just lying to themselves. I feel bad for not having the willpower necessary to work non stop on one thing for 10 hours. If I work on one thing then I miss the big picture. If I work on many things I am a dilettante who doesn't achieve anything.

And the funny thing is that I'm a Stirnerite. When you stay unspooked then everyone else's belief system feels like a personal attack. Fuck these people who say that X is so important. X is always working hard / enjoying yourself / focusing on one thing / focusing on many things / reading history / classics / philosophy / other shit.

The awful thing is that I know everyone else is a fraud. That NFL player who everyone loves and says is hardworking has never read a book. That mathematics professor known as a genius is a disgusting dyel. That literary figure who goes on about Shakespeare being a god doesn't know any maths or science greater than an 18 year old yet claims to be worldly. That billionaire who goes on about humanity's big issues does nothing but write checks for people who make social media apps.

>have to do "video interview" for civil service graduate application
>I.e. record myself answering questions using a webcam and being viewed later on by posh people who will reject me either due to my lack of a posh accent or my ugliness

Anyone can do these jobs. Anyone can be an investment banker. They pick people solely based on their normieness. That's why I've had 30 graduate or intern interviews and failed them all

>tfw graduated over a year ago
>tfw living at home
>tfw feel like going to the cinema and library just to not feel alone even though it's a false feeling (I have zero social life)
>tfw existential crisis is off the charts
>tfw no motivation to work hard
>tfw hate my humiliating part time retailcuck job that ruins my week despite being less than 20 hours
>hate the idea of full time work even more

I feel such like a useless pathetic loser when reading or watching a movie. I'm consuming and not producing. All the good looking Instagram people and famous people on twitter and rich people and people are living the life yet I do nothing all day.

I hate being told that I have to read 9001 books or else I'm dumb.

My existential crisis is powerful. Almost all jobs are meaningless, even the rich or sought after ones. The only people I respect are STEM researchers but I did a shitty engineering degree and can't bear not being rich so I can't be a physicist or mathematician. Almost all jobs are worthless intellectually. Being a doctor gives only social capital, it is an unintellectual job. Even actors are big faggoty pretenders.

The reason women never have existential crises is because to them attention is like sex for men, so they are constantly orgasming everywhere they go.

Being unattractive makes my life harder than yours. I don't have the motivation to eat healthily at all. The only reason I'm not morbidly obese is because I go to the gym a lot and lift lots of weights but I only do it out of habit. I don't want to acknowledge habits or follow schedules or have long term goals because they take away my feeling of having free will.

I haven't read anything insightful or mind opening for a long time and have realised that philisophy consists of just flailing about in the space of unfalsifiable thoughts.

>been telling myself for over a year that I'd buckle down and work hard on a side project
>done almost nothing
>graduated over 1.5 years ago with a STEM degree
>have a cuckworthy retail job

>just did a HireVue one way video interview for a graduate role at a famous company

I've never felt so violated in my life. I bet some HR roasties are laughing at me for not being a Chad and they will reject my application.

>graduate job application form or interview asks for my greatest accomplishment
>tfw I've don't fuck all
>tfw I've had academic rewards but I know it's a faux pas to mention those
>tfw I just play lots of vidya in my free time

>applied for a graduate job with Unilever
>had to do online "games" as part of the process that involved mashing the space bar as much as I would in certain amounts of times (srs)
>tests said I did well
>still rejected instantly afterwards

Being a searching wagie is suffering

>had 10 day holiday from 18 hour per week part time job
>went by in a flash
>can't motivate myself to stop binge eating or work hard during my copious amount of free time (learning programming etc)
>zero social life
>went through university with zero social life, not even acquaintances and never done anything with women, including asking one out, except for having prostitutes
>had zero interest in my degree subject, I did less than 40 hours of work in the final 1.5 years (not including sitting in lectures) but managed to escape with a 2:1
>lift lots of weights but I don't have a Chad face so I'll never get attention from women
>entertainment and art is just Chads and Staceys trying to blackmail me by saying I'm "close minded" and "Not cultured" if I don't spend free time on it
>too autistic to pass graduate job interviews that are no doubt soul crushingly dull anyway
>streets crawling with hot university students that I gawk at through the bus windows knowing I'll never even talk to them and they get dicked by 10 Chads a night
>have no productive interests - I only go to the gym, read books, or browse the internet
>my part time retailcuck job is absolutely humiliating and I'm either dreading it on free days or feeling like the day is ruined because of a 6 hour shift
>tfw I am unironically nihilistic
>tfw every social situation I was ever in (particularly every job I've had) ends the same way- after the initial welcome I don't talk to anyone apart from the bare minimum and I slowly come to hate everyone as I assume they hate me for my non-normieness or ugliness; the quickest this happened was over the course of an open day I attended

>working at wage cuck job stacking shelves
>seeing Staceys and Chads together on a Friday night, all of them my age or younger
>co-workers probably make fun of me behind my back because I don't socialise with any of them
>work is boring me to death and is absolutely mind numbing
>have to wear a uniform, which is humiliating and makes me feel like a prisoner
>realising I'm 25 and never had attention from a girl ever, never had a gf
>realising that I'm pretty much cast out from society
>pop music used as muzak and played on repeat solidifies the humiliation
>feel humiliated when seeing people I know

>going to my wagie job
>work part time for 6 hours 3 days a week but my week consists of days ruined by work or days dreading the upcoming work days
>do a job that some silicon valley 19 year old should've automated by now (they're too busy with the college fuckfest)
>am a retailcuck
>did a stem degree and I'm smart but lazy
>see lots of Staceys and Chads
>sometimes get seen by people I went to school with and yhey probably laugh at me and think lol shouldn't he be successful
>was laughed at by girls younger than me who knew my name ("Hey look it's Anon") and j didn't even know who they were
>manager realised I've been taking 40 minute breaks instead of 15 and subtlety told me to cut it out

Should I feel guilty for not wanting a routine or a schedule?

I went for a walk today (I'm a smart but lazy graduate who only works a menial job) and felt guilty for not learning stuff or doing work at that moment

How do people live with themselves? I'm watching a tennis match on tv where the two tennis players are rich Chads.

But the umpire is some 30+ year old guy whose only skills is watching a ball. The line judges are similar but lower. And photographers who do nothing but point and click and then sell their photos to some saturated market, pretending it's 1910. The commentators are either former tennis players who have nothing better to do even with all their money.

>play vidya obsessively from the ages of 5 to 20 before becoming bored with them
>reading biographies of billionaires / successful and famous people
>"While other kids played video games, [person name] created them from the age of 12..."

Kill me famalam