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>>50271601
I experience the exact same situation,

today I woke up at 7 am, was trapped in the mind loop of instagram tiktok videos I compulsively click on until about 10am, get up brush my teeth (im bad about this too as I'll go into the bathroom and put paste on the brush but forget about it for a few hours), made breakfeast for myself, 3 eggs 3 bacon 2 sausage 1 glass of raw milk, that I have barely touched and will have to force myself to eat

it is now 4 PM and I'll probably go through one of the many hundreds of tabs I have opened to "get back to improving and studying" but will just lead me on another tangent that will open 10 more tabs and the cycle will repeat

I've been going through this for 5+ years thinking with every upside of the cycle that I'm breaking through just to relapse and crash again from an outside stress triggering event that will cause my anxiety to overthink non-stop for hours and causes alot of built up tension in my body I have to be conscious of.

So far after this many years, I have come to the conclusion that it's willpower itself. I don't want to believe that ADHD is real and I am powerless, otherwise executive dysfunction is my 2nd best guess. Glad I have one friend left that has still stuck around, he's really into working out and has come around on my views and has definitely been a great branch to pull myself up from to inspire me to help become the man I aspire to be.

This is my current wallpaper I stare at every time I want to relapse, I must stay consistent instead of constantly always trying to "turn a page".