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My real life began to end 4 years ago when I rejected a japanese qt because I had a girlfriend and "muh morals". My real life ended 3 years ago when I rejected to have 2 bisexual girlfriends. All I had to do was to introduce them after my gf told me she considered herself bi and wished to try it, but I did not proceed because the fear of her changing her mind and damaging our relationship stopped me. My real life collapsed 1 year ago when she cheated anyways with an uglier asshole she met at the masters degree I helped her to get into, straight up telling me she is a nymphomaniac and then me realizing all the warnings were there from the beginning, I would be living in Japan now had I followed those signs, saving my mental health from the psychological abuse she did during 2 years living together, making me feel like a useless PoS that could not do anything right.
My real life lost purpose when the coof closed everything and I realized this will last the remaining of my youth, thinking I will never travel the world young, the subsequent depression made me lose value on the hard work I had put on my 12k savings of 4 years working in the 3rd world, originally to buy a house or something, which I didn't care for anymore, and then on March 28 I discovered how to trade fucking futures and lost my 1.4 BTC gambling.
My life turned into a joke when I realized I am almost 30 and getting too old to look for a valuable woman. Even having a good job and not being ugly nor fat is useless, 3 girls rejected me to go back with their cheating exes, and at this point I only meet single mothers.
My real life stopped being real the day I realized this is but a dream and nothing matters, no ammount of money or effort, we all blindly follow a path, we are nothing but puppets in a play we will never understand, we are taken here to suffer in a personal unique way and learn lessons that we will never apply because we will get old and die before having a second chance of living a real life

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